As the time quickly approaches I am having more nervous thoughts, which I guess is just normal due to the emotional roller coaster my body is putting me through. And let me tell you... oh what a coaster this is. For example, Eric made a simple comment that we have a lot to do before she comes and before we move. That turns into me balling my eyes out for 15 minutes and locking myself in the bathroom because I think he is aiming it at me and that I am neglecting my house responsibilities. We went to Waffle House for dinner and all was normal.
But my thoughts are turning into fears. What if something goes wrong??? What if I can't handle this? So do my twice-their-normal-size ankles mean I am getting toxemia?? Why haven't I felt her move (this is the weird one... I (my insides) may not feel her move, but then if I place a hand on my belly I can feel her then... is this normal????)? What happens if my water breaks while I am stuck in I-95 traffic?? Are my hips supposed to hurt this much? Why do I cry every morning in the shower?? Is that a contraction or do I just need to go to the bathroom? And why don't they make maternity t-shirts longer!!?!??!?!??!
I'm sure some of this is normal stuff, but I think I am starting to believe that something is going to go wrong which just turns me into a basket case and I have to blame the heat for my watering eyes. I strongly believe now that I most certainly got the worrying gene that plaques the women on Mom's side.
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oh baby girl. Welcome to the world of motherhood. I will cry for you tonight also, but they will be tears of joy. Everything you have described is normal and just shows it is getting closer. You even told me that the Dr's told you movement slows down the last month as she is sleeping more getting ready to meet the world. Think how wonderful Broomhilda is going to be... put your fears to rest, and when you can't, blame mama!
Hey chica! Trust me...worrying is normal. However, it might help to talk through them with somebody who has been there recently. Feel free to call me!
In the meantime, the way that I calmed my nerves was just to pray...to remind myself (not God, because He hasn't forgotten) that God is in control and that He knows what's best. I would just pray that He would cause things to happen in ways that were best for me and for the baby. Then I have to trust Him to follow through. It's hard, but my fears seemed to calm little by little with each prayer.
Hey Jen, it is normal, so don't feel too out of it. When I was 32 weeks with J, I told my mom that I could not go through with it, what was I supposed to do? She reminded me that it was a little late to think that and since women have been having babies for thousands of years, my day would soon arrive! Think of it this way, you have made it farther into the pregnancy than your dr's thought! So, you are doing splendid! Congrats on your soon to be here, healthy, baby girl! We can't wait to meet her either!
All sounds pretty normal to me. I remember being able to feel Caleb on the outside with my hand, but not on the inside...or being able to see my belly move but not really feel it. That was weird. I used to worry too about getting stuck in traffic...or stuck at work with all the men! But then I would remember how we learned that first timers generally take so long that they wish they had stayed home longer and not gone to the hospital so early. I had contractions for like 3 weeks before Caleb was born and they would get closer and stronger and scare us and we were just about to call the doctor, and then they would stop! I remember that stressing me out! And AMEN on the shirts...I hated the bottom of my stupid big belly hanging out for the world to see! Don't worry, it will all be over soon! We'll be praying for you. If you want us to come up and help you get the house ready for market or whatever, just let us know!
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